To Live By

Day Ten through Day Fourteen

Have you ever been so tired, so stressed out beyond your breaking point and you still have more homework, more school, more friends and work and family and problems and evil midgets to deal with? 

There are instances in my life where nothing is going right.  Where ‘fml’ is not an exaggeration; where breaking down is about the only thing left at the end of the day to do and where I wish I had the guts and audacity to actually kill myself. 

I have been blessed by intervening miracles that just kind of salvage me before I can totally lose it or I am actually able to get away from the situation so I can lose it. 

The first time I remember was in high school where I was going through a really hard time just trying to figure why I was so different from the people in my class and just normal teenage stuff.  A girl complimented me so well that my veritably low self-esteem sky rocketed.  I make it a point to always share my opinions to everyone just so they can be sure I how I feel about them and maybe it'll make their day better.

The next one was at work when a guy we named Pokémon still worked there.  I was in mid-freak out and just about to have a huge panic attack when he stayed for the rest of my shift.  I remember driving around after that crying my ass off and figuring shit out.

There have been other times at pivotal points in my life where people have saved me. 

The last few weeks have been presenting themselves as an unrelenting hardship of laziness and by consequence: uncompromising self-inflicted stress.  Why?  Because depression sucks ass and it’s the hardest thing in the world just to get out of bed.  Let alone care about school and work. 

I’m going to fail this semester.  I’ve to terms about this and I’ll have to confront the repercussions soon but until then I’m trying my best to be happy.  I’m filling my life with happy things and people as often as possible. 

Kind of like this chocolate penguin head.  Kyrsten, Danny and I laughed for like a half an hour about my inability to eat it because it was too cute.  I ended up gouging its eyes…somehow defacing it was more morally sound to me at the time?

This week I also threw out my back pretty badly enough for me to miss school.  I did go to the movies though when I was feeling better.  Charles, Matt and I saw “No Strings Attached” and it was really good. 

<---(This is Matt; he's a pretty hott chick)

Yesterday I had a snowday.  Hellz yeah!  We all hung out with my favorite little brother and sister: Jeff and Jackie.  Since school started I haven’t been able to hang out with any of my friends so it was amazing seeing them!  We went to Wal-Mart like we always do and played with all the toys :]  I bought 300 and some chick flicks.  And socks.  I’m pretty sure I have a sock fetish…

Today I spent it going out with Charles and then to my only class of the day for an exam. 

My life is sprinkled with wonderful people who kind of just pop in at the right time and stop me from going completely crazy!  I love them so much. 

Jump Over The Moon

Day Nine

 

Work was cool.  We had free ice cream because we cleaned the shake machine.  Yum! 

This is what happened to the rest of it.  ^_^  --->

I don't know why I insist on having arrows pointing at the depicted picture.  I like to think you'd get it without it...

This is a pic of my bestie Gansta T cleaning out our fry area.  She’s cute.

<---- Yes, an arrow.



Mac Sauce is Precariously Close to Man Sauce

Day Eight

You may ask why everything it aligned to the left.  And I would answer.

Today, which is still in progress, consists of me being at work for over eight hours...I'm staying to do part of an over night so I learn how to do them.  I'm not even sure right now if any of this is making sense.  I'm so tired. 

I dropped everything today.  And by everything, I'm pretty sure if I was God I would've killed the world.  But I'm not and you're safe.  I honestly feel like I'm drunk...

Anyway, we're playing a name game right now.  I'm making up the names and putting them on their foreheads and they have to guess them.  Don't worry, we actually work.  We get chizzzz done!

THis is an example of the messes that I made. 

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Hey, you pretentious H up there that won't uncapitalize yourself; you go fuck yourself.

So I shouldn't post stuff on FaceBook when I'm tired.  I make an amazing amount of mistakes and typos that will forever haunt me.    

Do you see this?  Man sauce.  It says man sauce. 



I just realized this is aligned to the right.  Fuck. Me. 



[Update:] Why the hell did I block out my last name when it's like RIGHT over there.  God, I'm tired.



I Have a Post-It in My Hair

Day Seven

I have nothing to say other then: BUBBLE LIGHTS! They're on cars.  They look like boobs.  They're awesome. 

Coming Home to Chocolate

Day Six?  Sure!

It started off with a crabby Charles, but he gave me part of his lunch so I forgave him.  I dropped him off at school and we followed behind a car that had the license plate 'SQUEESH!'   I skipped my first class again in lieu of getting homework done and some general relaxation. 

I spent my morning and afternoon hanging out with two of the funniest girls ever!  I just love hanging out with these two.  We got a 50 piece for dinner :]   

Now Jew...Err, he should get a nickname that is more politically correct: Agent Squirell.  Anyway Agent Squirell is here waiting for me to give him money.  I get his PS3 for an extended amount of time.  FTW!

Sometimes when I’m with people I have this feeling like something important is going on.  Something potent that is earthshattering if I could just grasp it.  I had a lot of that today.  I met up with a old friend from high school and it was awesome.  I'm IMing two other girlfriends and I miss them with a fierceness!  And then I spent the afternoon with two amazing girls and then with a man I have considered a second-placed soul mate.  Then, then I got to spend an hour with Charles. 

When I'm with these people I forget that I just bombed a geo quiz or that I have insurmountable amount of papers to write in the morning. 

I love friends...

Black and Yellow

Day Five, Biatches!

I have the most amazing friends ever.  You should be jealous.  We have a multiude of inside jokes that keep us throughly entertained at work.  Yeah, I work with the majority of my best friends.  I'm awesome ^_^  And very fortunate.  They keep me sane.  

The office was turned into a McClubHouse.  Don't know why since I wasn't apart of that joke; or at least how it originated, but I did make a sign to commemorate it!

I'm pretty sure we got in trouble for it lmao

I love getting in trouble...I think it's funny :] 

People need to loosen up and get jiggy with it...actually, I've never been sure what that is and it slightly worries me.  If I just told you to go out and get herpies I apologize and please don't do it!

The herpies is bad!!!

Serious Moustache

Me:  I have a serious moustache.

Charles: It makes me think of Hitler.

Me:  It’s more serious then Hitler’s!

Matt: More serious then Hitler’s?

Me: I fucked Hitler, took his moustache and added it’s powers to mine.

It's true, I have one!  I put it on at work when I must yell or when I'm having a serious engagement that involves raging fist or my amazing acumen is needed.  Ironically, I'm not sure if I even spelt that right and am far too lazy to hit F7...

But anyway, DAY FOUR!

Actually...I'm not sure what I did that day so I'm going to replace it with another day. 

HONORARY DAY FOUR!!!  FTW!!

So Charles, Matt and I skipped school to go see Black Swan.  Creepiest, most amazing shit eva! Then we picked up Jeff from school and went to see some other movie: The Rite.  I was not able to sleep in the dark...just say'n.  In between we stopped off at mine and Charles's work to grab our paychecks and do homework.  I'm not sure why we skipped just to do homework...T'ves. 

Side notes:  We call Matt 'Jew', even though he isn't one.  And I call Jeff 'Heffery' cause sometimes I try to convince people I'm Spanish.  I think they're both going to be our secret lovers one day since they're pretty ^_^ 

And that's it for that day...



Frozen Simpsons

Day Three

After sleeping in and skipping my first class with secret boyfriend...I shall name him Charles for safety.  It sounds fancy and delicious.  Anyway, we eventually went to school.  

I swear, I thought college was going to be full of smart people.  That makes sense, right?  I wonder why I'm the only one able to grasp anything in my music class.  I hate group work cause you always just get put with the three singualar people that have no idea what's going on.  >_< 

Then some shanks (lol) took mine and my friend's seats in the last class so I had to sit next to some annoying guy that hit on me and wouldn't stop talking.  

After school Charles and I went WalMart to grab stuff for our delicious dinner!  He's always the best part of my day. 

McLove'n It

Day Two

Today was a really frustrating day at work.  It was my first shift alone and everything was just kind of horrible.  I had amazing people though that pulled me though it. 

I felt bad because I ended up yelling at the cutest boy ever, but it was bound to happen cause I was so pissed off.

All-in-all, I can't complain about today, so now I'm going to go do homework that's due in the morning.  Whoop.

P.S. The photo is something I took off a application for WalMart and thought it funny since my store manager is named Katrina.

[Edit] This is a picture of Jesse-----> 

Cutest thing ever!  How can you NOT love him?!

I Enjoy Lists...

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This is me.  I am cooler then you and this is why I blog.

Okay, not really.  I’m actually really boring, with a really boring life :D  I am going to document it anyway because I’m slightly narcissistic.  FTW! 

I have a to-do list.  Actually, I have multitudes of to-do list, bucket lists, don't-touch-that-it's-poisonous lists and all of which I hardly ever adhere to (notice the burn mark on my arm) and most just get thrown away.  I do enjoy the writing of lists because I'm able to put things in perspective and organize cognitively.  To wrap up my obsession with lists: I wanted to do a blog of my daily life, including pictures, so I could remember the good and the bad and look back on it.  This is for me so I don't care if anyone looks at this ever. 

ON WITH IT…

Today is my only day off this month since I’ve started being a manager at McDonalds.  Jank, I know.  I’m pretty bummed about it but my wallet won’t be!  Still with school and work I miss having a life already.  That probably means my boring life has become even more nominal -_-. 

I get one day with my secret fiancé, who is secret because he works with me and we can’t date.  So when we’re there we’re broken up even though I’m pretty sure everyone knows that we’re still together.  I can’t bring myself to actually prove it to people cause I like bragging and talking about him.  The store manager is looking the other way because I don’t show favoritism and will probably be harder on him because he’s one of the older one’s there and he has potential to be a manager too. 

I go to school only three days a week this semester and I kind of like my classes.  I’ve been in college for around three years now and I’m not sure what I’m going to do with my life.  I’m so noncommittal and lazy lol. 

Speaking of lazy: I had eight hours of sleep and still took a nap today.  Best way to spend a day off :]