Little Big Planet is Highly Addicting

Day two hundred and fifty two

I'm getting into the swing of myself again.  Like my geeky side.  I'm all hip on certain animes again and I'm going to Youmacon soonish as Choji (hopefully.)   This can all be blamed on spending so much time with boyfriend.  That's pretty much all we've been doing, along with eating our considerable weight in junk food.  :]  Good times.  

It's super duper fun being all geeky and I feel special knowing these kinds of things.  Geek and nerd were always synonymous with intelligence with me so I feel nifty when I quote something off of Star Trek.  

Oh gawd, I need a life.  

Seriously.  

Now anyway, teasing myself aside, I'm going to school at a new place this year.  Downtown K-zoo.  It's really lovely, despite being a bit spooky when it turns dark.  I do miss hanging out with my friends at the normal campus though some days but other than not my afternoons are filled with hanging out with Boyfriend.  

We're planning on moving into his house together and I'm super excited about it. Adamantly, maybe a little worried.  We do tend to almost kill each other pretty often.  :]   We have lived together before...and we're still alive.  *nervous chuckle*  

Anyway, I'm trying to transfer to Western for next semester because I abhor this horrid place known as KVCC.  It's so boring, academically speaking.
Oh well.
It's almost 2:30 in the morning so I'm going to wrap this up and hopefully go to bed soon.
 

Honey Mustard Chips Are Painful.

Day one hundred and seventy three...

So I was looking at some older pictures of myself; about a few months ago actually and I noticed that I was really fat!  Like, I-can't-believe-I-let-myself-get-that-fat kind of fat. I've lost 30 pounds in that time and I'm really happy with myself.
I'm excited to lose more, and hopefully quicker if I work out more.  It's kinda hard though because I never have the energy to do it.  I need some motivation.  I started this awhile ago: (but stopped because I got super depressed again) I hung up pictures and quotes around my room that really made my happy or excited to get out there and do more stuff.
What I've done so far was stop drinking pop and take candy out of my life.  It's actually very easy when you get acclimated to it.  I was working out easily for a bit too.  Like a few free weights for arms and running on the treadmill.  So now it's time to up my progress (hopefully)

My goal for August: Lose ten pounds and work out like crazy.  I want to be down to 220 by school time.  Maybe even 200 :] I bet I can lose it quickly if I try!

Back In Black

Day 146...ish.

And four months later I have returned.  So I'm waiting for Charles to get out of work because I'm waiting in the crew room from my shift that ended an hour ago.  Today was a pretty good day, besides being boring.  I was in grill all day, got to count cash twice, got to hug Austin, talk to my friend John online, and I have a date night planned for my "weekend" off on Monday and Tuesday.  Things are look'n up despite me being pretty low for awhile.
I have a new phone now with a pretty good camera and that is why I'm updating finally.  I think things are finally getting better...or at least back to normalcy?
On a side note: I know I've missed a lot of days but I have learned a lot in my absence: don't have a three-way relationship until everyone else in the relationship is older and more mature.

To Live By

Day Ten through Day Fourteen

Have you ever been so tired, so stressed out beyond your breaking point and you still have more homework, more school, more friends and work and family and problems and evil midgets to deal with? 

There are instances in my life where nothing is going right.  Where ‘fml’ is not an exaggeration; where breaking down is about the only thing left at the end of the day to do and where I wish I had the guts and audacity to actually kill myself. 

I have been blessed by intervening miracles that just kind of salvage me before I can totally lose it or I am actually able to get away from the situation so I can lose it. 

The first time I remember was in high school where I was going through a really hard time just trying to figure why I was so different from the people in my class and just normal teenage stuff.  A girl complimented me so well that my veritably low self-esteem sky rocketed.  I make it a point to always share my opinions to everyone just so they can be sure I how I feel about them and maybe it'll make their day better.

The next one was at work when a guy we named Pokémon still worked there.  I was in mid-freak out and just about to have a huge panic attack when he stayed for the rest of my shift.  I remember driving around after that crying my ass off and figuring shit out.

There have been other times at pivotal points in my life where people have saved me. 

The last few weeks have been presenting themselves as an unrelenting hardship of laziness and by consequence: uncompromising self-inflicted stress.  Why?  Because depression sucks ass and it’s the hardest thing in the world just to get out of bed.  Let alone care about school and work. 

I’m going to fail this semester.  I’ve to terms about this and I’ll have to confront the repercussions soon but until then I’m trying my best to be happy.  I’m filling my life with happy things and people as often as possible. 

Kind of like this chocolate penguin head.  Kyrsten, Danny and I laughed for like a half an hour about my inability to eat it because it was too cute.  I ended up gouging its eyes…somehow defacing it was more morally sound to me at the time?

This week I also threw out my back pretty badly enough for me to miss school.  I did go to the movies though when I was feeling better.  Charles, Matt and I saw “No Strings Attached” and it was really good. 

<---(This is Matt; he's a pretty hott chick)

Yesterday I had a snowday.  Hellz yeah!  We all hung out with my favorite little brother and sister: Jeff and Jackie.  Since school started I haven’t been able to hang out with any of my friends so it was amazing seeing them!  We went to Wal-Mart like we always do and played with all the toys :]  I bought 300 and some chick flicks.  And socks.  I’m pretty sure I have a sock fetish…

Today I spent it going out with Charles and then to my only class of the day for an exam. 

My life is sprinkled with wonderful people who kind of just pop in at the right time and stop me from going completely crazy!  I love them so much. 

Jump Over The Moon

Day Nine

 

Work was cool.  We had free ice cream because we cleaned the shake machine.  Yum! 

This is what happened to the rest of it.  ^_^  --->

I don't know why I insist on having arrows pointing at the depicted picture.  I like to think you'd get it without it...

This is a pic of my bestie Gansta T cleaning out our fry area.  She’s cute.

<---- Yes, an arrow.



Mac Sauce is Precariously Close to Man Sauce

Day Eight

You may ask why everything it aligned to the left.  And I would answer.

Today, which is still in progress, consists of me being at work for over eight hours...I'm staying to do part of an over night so I learn how to do them.  I'm not even sure right now if any of this is making sense.  I'm so tired. 

I dropped everything today.  And by everything, I'm pretty sure if I was God I would've killed the world.  But I'm not and you're safe.  I honestly feel like I'm drunk...

Anyway, we're playing a name game right now.  I'm making up the names and putting them on their foreheads and they have to guess them.  Don't worry, we actually work.  We get chizzzz done!

THis is an example of the messes that I made. 

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Hey, you pretentious H up there that won't uncapitalize yourself; you go fuck yourself.

So I shouldn't post stuff on FaceBook when I'm tired.  I make an amazing amount of mistakes and typos that will forever haunt me.    

Do you see this?  Man sauce.  It says man sauce. 



I just realized this is aligned to the right.  Fuck. Me. 



[Update:] Why the hell did I block out my last name when it's like RIGHT over there.  God, I'm tired.



I Have a Post-It in My Hair

Day Seven

I have nothing to say other then: BUBBLE LIGHTS! They're on cars.  They look like boobs.  They're awesome.